My boyfriend raped me but still love him. Should I continue with the relationship?

I was raped by my boyfriend who drugged my drink with sleeping peel in my apartment and took advantage of me.My boyfriend raped me but still love him. Should I continue with the relationship?

I woke up with pains and my gown soaked with blood and a smiling boyfriend beside me, knowing what has happened I asked him why he did such a terrible thing, he told me he wanted to be sure I was a virgin ’cause he doesn’t want to be deceived again just like other girls he dated deceived him by lying they were one. I slapped him and called him all sought of unprintable names and broke up with him that moment.

He keeps coming back apologising and pleading for me to come back to him and forgive and forget and give love a chance again but the deed has been done and I still loves him but apparently can’t forgive him because I’ve vowed to keep my virginity till marriage and that vow has been broken because of him.

Though Sam loves me and I love him too but I can’t just understand why he did this to me. I don’t think I can ever forgive him. He betrayed my love and trust for him. Because of the love I have for him, I decided to keep the incident to myself without informing anyone not even my parents.

But one thing I can’t understand is that his love keeps growing in my heart every day.

I need your advice, should I forgive him and continue with the relationship? I’m totally confused right now. Please help